2024

I’m going to start all over, this year I’ve been too nice to point where I let everyone walk all over me. Putting the dark shit I had to go through first, before I put out the healed version of me. I waited for you to finish, but now I got my headphones on and I can’t hear what you said. If you don’t like what I say, don’t ask for my opinion, I will be straight and straightforward to the point. Next year will be more of tropical era. I used to be someone who had to hide my feelings just keep the peace. No more keeping the peace, because all it got me was getting hurt even more. I would apologize even when I know I didn’t do nothing wrong. I hate compliments, because I always had targets on my back. No matter what I did, I’m damned if I do, damned if I don’t. I’m living on my own terms, no more people pleasing or feeling useless. I found peace with speaking my mind, being blunt and straightforward. If you don’t like it not my problem or issue. There is door, you can leave, I’ll open the door. I’ve made my mistakes, but half the shit I went through I didn’t deserve. You won’t change me or blame me for your own actions either. You live and learn, but you also learn to forgive yourself as well. Next year will be a brand new me, no longer holding back or caring. Since no one cared when I was being walked over.

Being judged for my own health problems, people thinking I am making it up for attention or it’s not real. Listen to yourself, you are talking about things that you don’t even understand or know about. If you put yourself in other people's shoes maybe you will understand, but you are too arrogant to care. Wait until you have health problems and others treat you the way you treated me, then give you a view from my perspective. Being in pain, sick and dizzy all the time wasn’t what I chose. This was a battle given to me, I have no cure but at least I still show up to help others. I always put others before me, and I always go out of my way to help others and make sure their day is better. I don’t have to do that, but I love helping other people and just doing God’s work. I am not about the popularity or what comes back to me, I could care less. Every good deed that is done is out of helping others, you never know you have made their day. Nowadays everyone is about themselves or trying to tear everyone else down. It's a sad world we live in and we need to do better. Long story short, I could have given the ones who hurt me the same treatment, but I walked away. I gave them the cold shoulder as well. Two classy ways to be, without falling to the same level as them. This is why many people don’t like me or always have a problem with me, when they have a problem with themselves. I will never change or think I am better because I am not. I am thankful to be who I am and be where I am today. I am thankful for the support and that I get to do what I love. Long story short it was a tough fight, but it’s a fight I am glad I kept fighting.