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I felt fear in how "the truth about the girls i grew up with" episode felt after a few days, and instead of avoiding it, I faced it with compassion for myself. I spoke about my truth on an old friend, "Lena", that I recognized I still held resentment with. There are more truths to an experience, and at my core, a layer deeper where this experience lies in my heart, is the one I always manage to come home to. The truth of humanity, that we are allowed to be human, not just me but everyone.

Deep at my core, I change something I once saw as personal into universal by giving it the space I wanted to that experience, that energy, that person, that soul. I give it the space to be human. When I receive malicious intent, I see that it was never malicious. It was always afraid, scared, lost, and wishing to be seen. I see an ache to be accepted and loved in a way I felt in my heart, too.

I see a child that wants to be loved unconditionally, to be loved through flaws, to be loved for all of them.

So, I love them. I also love myself too, enough to accept that the love and compassion I hold for their humanity can be just as aligned when it is done from afar as it would be up close. I accept that all I can do is love, whether it manifests as grace or forgiveness or affection, and that I do not wish to change who they are. Humanity doesn't deserve to be seen in exchange for gain; to me, the humanity in us all is one that deserves the space to be as they are, right now, without feeling like love must be earned.

I love unconditionally by loving myself, to love myself enough to be the person I dreamed of accepting and loving me in the past when I was afraid of being wrong. I love unconditionally by being that person to others, as it heals my humanity when I feel it put another soul at ease because even more so, my inner child recognizes she was never alone in this experience.

The human experience, the one that deserves all forms of love without having to earn it.

i love you!

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