Have you ever felt like you're regressing when life is supposed to be moving forward?

In this episode of Diary Detours, I’m sharing a diary entry and poem I wrote after I turned 30. It’s a journey into the emotions of feeling stuck, scared, and regressing—but also an opportunity to heal old wounds. Maybe you’ve felt this way, too.

EPISODE HIGHLIGHTS:

• Reflecting on turning 30 and feeling like I'm regressing emotionally
• Recounting a difficult year with big life changes and suppressed emotions
• Living in a situation that echoes childhood fears of criticism and invisibility
• Understanding how childhood survival instincts still affect me as an adult
• Finding blessings within life’s challenges

RESOURCES:

• Journals to help you day to day

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Ever had your heart race, but not from excitement, love, or adrenaline?

What if it’s more like being in survival mode, constantly on edge, waiting for the next shoe to drop? In this episode of Diary Detours, I read a personal diary entry that captures the raw, physical sensation of fear and hypervigilance. This is for anyone who has ever felt like prey in their own life.

MEMORABLE QUOTES:

• "It’s crazy how I still walk on eggshells around you. How I’m afraid to breathe around you."
• "This is the heartbeat of an animal in the wild…an animal who is scared for their life."
• "I live in survival mode. Not knowing when you’re going to attack."

RESOURCES:

• Journals to help you day to day

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Have you ever wished for an apology that might never come?

In this episode of Apology Avenue, we hear a powerful letter from a father to his daughter, where he confronts his deepest regrets about failing to protect his children. Through his words, we explore the devastating consequences of his silence and cowardice.

(*Remember: In this series, we are reading apology letters we have written to ourselves from the person who has hurt us. This is a journaling practice.)

EPISODE HIGHLIGHTS:

• A father’s heartfelt apology to his daughter for allowing abuse in their home.
• The father's admission of fearing failure and judgment, leading to poor decisions.
• How his silence and inaction allowed his wife’s abusive behavior to go unchecked.
• The father’s realization of the long-term impact on his children’s lives.
• His deep guilt over his son’s death and his belief that he is to blame.
• The father's acknowledgment of his hypocrisy as a church elder versus his failures at home.
• His plea for his daughter to not lose faith in Christ despite his own failures.
• The father’s expression of love and sorrow, understanding if his daughter can never forgive him.

RESOURCES:

• Journals to help you day to day
• Apology Avenue journal (letter-writing journal)
• Want to submit your own letter to the show?

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