Episodes

  • Ep 297 - Best of Spiritual Grit - Lean into the mystery of not knowing
    Nov 13 2025

    Midlife is chock full of surprises. Identities falling away, unknown futures ahead. What's not to love? Haha! But more importantly, how can you ground yourself and hold yourself through the portals of change and transformation that are inevitable? How can you lean into trust of yourself and the universe? Can you allow yourself to surrender to the natural unfolding of your life's purpose as you make your way toward elderhood? Get curious! Play! Experiment! Get comfortable with the uncomfortable! And know that our community, aka the MCCollective, is walking right alongside you! Listen in to get a glimpse into how to do just that.


    Spotify: ⁠https://open.spotify.com/show/3NmlshGX4ijHPXmFIgT1Nu⁠

    Apple: ⁠https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/spiritual-grit/id1497436520⁠


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    • Speak Your Truth: https://www.suryagian.com/speak-your-truth
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    36 mins
  • Ep 296 - Seeing what's possible in Mamdani’s win and in building community
    Nov 6 2025

    I can't not talk about Mamdani’s win. This is a huge example of what is possible when we come together in solidarity. In this week's episode, I'm talking about hope and inspiration, practicing discernment between what is yours and what is not yours, and working towards reclaiming our innate power. When we stand firm and proclaim our truths, and when we come together to help each other out, all things are possible. You can heal your trauma while also stepping into your power. You can build while tending to your wounds. Listen in to hear more!

    Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3NmlshGX4ijHPXmFIgT1Nu

    Apple: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/spiritual-grit/id1497436520

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    Today’s poems/ Books mentioned:

    • Tarot/Oracle Card: The King of Wands

    • “I Want Both of Us” by Hafiz

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    • Subscribe to mailing list + community: suryagian.com/subscribe and get the 7-day meditation challenge, “Spark Joy in Chaos”

    • Subscribe to “Adventures in Midlife” newsletter: leslieann.substack.com

    • Instagram: @leslieannhobayan

    • Email: leslieann@suryagian.com

    • Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLxAeQWRRsSo5E7PBJdZUeoEAYXnAtuyRy

    • Kundalini Yoga Classes: https://www.suryagian.com/anchor-amplify-kundalini

    • Speak Your Truth: https://www.suryagian.com/speak-your-truth
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    31 mins
  • Ep 295 - The Archipelago of Our Various Selves with Mel Hilario
    Oct 30 2025

    What do comics, writing, and Pilates have in common? None other than this week's guest, Mel Hilario! In this episode, we talk about all kinds of things from intuition to creative expression to somatic practices and everything in between! Including what it's like to be a daughter of Filipino immigrants who don't understand what we do in our lives. Join us as we continue the celebration of Filipino American History month with this episode!

    We embody many different roles and I have likened this existence to that of our ancestral lands: an archipelago. Tune in to hear how we link up all of our multiple passions and identities into who we are being. And how that in and of itself is a form of resistance.

    Mel Hilario Book: https://www.simonandschuster.com/books/Agent-Cupcake/Mel-Hilario/9781637158760

    Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3NmlshGX4ijHPXmFIgT1Nu

    Apple: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/spiritual-grit/id1497436520

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    Today’s poems/ Books mentioned:

    • Tarot/Oracle Card: Queen of Cups

    • “The Sorcery”

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    • Subscribe to mailing list + community: suryagian.com/subscribe and get the 7-day meditation challenge, “Spark Joy in Chaos”

    • Subscribe to “Adventures in Midlife” newsletter: leslieann.substack.com

    • Instagram: @leslieannhobayan

    • Email: leslieann@suryagian.com

    • Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLxAeQWRRsSo5E7PBJdZUeoEAYXnAtuyRy

    • Kundalini Yoga Classes: https://www.suryagian.com/anchor-amplify-kundalini

    • Speak Your Truth: https://www.suryagian.com/speak-your-truth

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    About the Guest:

    Melanie “Mel” Hilario is a writer who empowers readers by helping them understand the world around them, blending genres and transforming traditional character archetypes into fully realized people, with their own quirks, language, and interior lives. Mel received her MFA in Creative Writing from Mills College, has been a recipient of the Elizabeth George Foundation grant and residencies at VONA (Voices of our Nations Arts), Las Dos Brujas Writers Workshop, Writing by Writers, and Hedgebrook. She has developed characters for toy lines, masterminded educational workbooks, and written wrenching essays, most recently for the Kindred Souls anthology, Angry Women.

    Along with Lauren Davis and Katie Longua, Mel is part of the Eisner-nominated team, Triple Dream Comics. Together, they created the middle grade graphic novels, "Debian Perl, Digital Detective" and "Agent Cupcake." Their short story, "Traitor, Trickster, Dummy, Doll" appeared in The Nib and was nominated for the 2022 Eisner Award for Best Short Story.

    When she isn’t writing fiction, nonfiction, and comic books, Mel is in martial arts or ballet class, teaching Pilates, or attempting to stay off social media and failing miserably. She lives in Oakland with two of the largest cats her friends have ever seen.


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    48 mins
  • Ep 294 - What it Means to Remember, to Go Home, and to Practice Healing in the Name of Collective Liberation w/ Marjorie Milloria
    Oct 23 2025

    Continuing with our celebration of Filipino American History month, I've got a special guest today who is an artist, death doula, and spiritual ceramicist, Marjorie Milloria!

    In this episode, we talk about connecting with our spiritual and cultural inheritances, the healing practices we engage with, what it means to remember, and how this can help us towards collective liberation. We also talk about what it's like to go “home” and this continual search for belonging as daughters of the diaspora.

    And believe it or not, the fight for liberation starts with the practice of pouring liquor for each other and passing the glass around card tables full of salty snacks. Tune into this lively and nourishing conversation about topics that range from soju & lambanog (coconut “moonshine” ha!) to finding out we went to the same Catholic grammar school! All is not lost, friends. Remembering connection and community care are the keys to getting us through to the other side.

    Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3NmlshGX4ijHPXmFIgT1Nu

    Apple: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/spiritual-grit/id1497436520

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    Today’s poems/ Books mentioned:

    • Tarot/Oracle Card: Hermit (reversed)

    • “The Gardner” by Rabindranath Tagore

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    Courses / Exclusive Content / Book Mentioned:

    • Subscribe to mailing list + community: suryagian.com/subscribe and get the 7-day meditation challenge, “Spark Joy in Chaos”

    • Subscribe to “Adventures in Midlife” newsletter: leslieann.substack.com

    • Instagram: @leslieannhobayan

    • Email: leslieann@suryagian.com

    • Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLxAeQWRRsSo5E7PBJdZUeoEAYXnAtuyRy

    • Kundalini Yoga Classes: https://www.suryagian.com/anchor-amplify-kundalini

    • Speak Your Truth: https://www.suryagian.com/speak-your-truth

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    About the Guest:

    Marjorie Grace Milloria is an artist, death doula, and Craigslist queen who uses creation as prayer, art as activism, and connection as medicine. Her work is informed by her study of native Filipino healing and customs, and guided by the Filipino concept of “kapwa” or “the shared self.”

    In addition to performance and grief facilitation, Marjorie (apparently) hand-makes sacred pottery. Through channeling ancestors and Spirit, the pieces she creates are prayers made manifest with carvings inspired by “batok” or “patik,” the ancient practice of Filipino tattooing.

    Marjorie’s artistry is devoted to honoring the divinity of all (and not some), and rooted in her passion for deepening collective relationship. Her prayers are that we remember that joy is resistance, and that in all things, we return to love as many times as we can.


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    1 hr
  • Ep 293 - Folktales, Spiritual Inheritance, and Kpop Demon Hunters w/ Rebecca Mabanglo-Mayor
    Oct 16 2025

    This week I have a guest! Yay! As part of Filipino American History month, I am featuring a Filipino guest each week during the month of October. This week, I am talking with Rebecca Mabanglo-Mayor, poet, writer, and storyteller. Our conversation touches on spiritual inheritance & practices, our relationship with cultural identity & the land upon which we live, and our mutual obsession: K-pop demon hunters. (Because, I mean, how could we not talk about that? It has all the topics that we're curious about!)

    Tune in to hear all about it! From cultivating and strengthening your intuition to Rebecca's brag about Kpop Demon Hunters, you'll be entertained while also enticed to dig deeper within. Because that's how we roll - light laughter and deep inquiry.

    Blog: https://rebeccamabanglomayor.com/#blog

    Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3NmlshGX4ijHPXmFIgT1Nu

    Apple: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/spiritual-grit/id1497436520

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    Today’s poems/ Books mentioned:

    • Tarot/Oracle Card: Queen of Cups

    • “Aswang Paces Outside of Kaiser Permanente Hospital” by Rachelle Cruz

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    Courses / Exclusive Content / Book Mentioned:

    • Subscribe to mailing list + community: suryagian.com/subscribe and get the 7-day meditation challenge, “Spark Joy in Chaos”

    • Subscribe to “Adventures in Midlife” newsletter: leslieann.substack.com

    • Instagram: @leslieannhobayan

    • Email: leslieann@suryagian.com

    • Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLxAeQWRRsSo5E7PBJdZUeoEAYXnAtuyRy

    • Kundalini Yoga Classes: https://www.suryagian.com/anchor-amplify-kundalini

    Speak Your Truth: https://www.suryagian.com/speak-your-truth


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    About Rebecca Mabanglo-Mayor

    Rebecca Mabanglo-Mayor’s non-fiction, poetry, and short fiction have appeared in print and online in several journals and anthologies including Katipunan Literary Magazine, Growing Up Filipino II: More Stories for Young Adults, Kuwento: Small Things, and Beyond Lumpia, Pansit, and Seven Manangs Wild: An Anthology. Her poetry chapbook Pause Mid-Flight was released in 2010. She is also the co-editor of True Stories: The Narrative Project Vol. I-IV, and her poetry and essays have been collected in Dancing Between Bamboo Poles. She has been performing as a storyteller since 2006 and specializes in stories based on Filipino folktales and Filipino-American history.

    Rebecca, as Rebecca A. Saxton, received her MFA in Creative Writing from Pacific Lutheran University in 2012, her BA in Humanities from Washington State University in 1998, and her MA degree in English with honors from Western Washington University in 2003.

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    54 mins
  • Ep 292 - Opening Up to Love, Grounding, and Community
    Oct 9 2025

    In this week's episode, I'm talking about being bold and brave in how you live your life. Maybe it's the full moon in Aries that is inspiring me this week, but it's time for us to take down the walls around our hearts and really experience the life we're meant to live. Even if it means heartbreak. Even if it means feeling grief. Even if it means feeling at all!

    This is why we're here. To live through the experiences of what it is to be human. And in order to do that we need to open ourselves up. Not just our hearts. We also need to open ourselves up to the people around us. And to build community and connection. I know I probably sound like a broken record after all of these episodes around community, but it can't be emphasized more. We are at a crucial point right now and it is so essential for us to come together if we are to survive the end of this empiré. Tune in to hear more and to learn what grounding actually is and why it is key to everything I'm talking about.

    Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3NmlshGX4ijHPXmFIgT1Nu

    Apple: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/spiritual-grit/id1497436520

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    Today’s poems/ Books mentioned:

    • Tarot/Oracle Card: The Knight of Cups

    • “All the Talents of God” by Hafiz

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    Courses / Exclusive Content / Book Mentioned:

    • Subscribe to mailing list + community: suryagian.com/subscribe and get the 7-day meditation challenge, “Spark Joy in Chaos”

    • Subscribe to “Adventures in Midlife” newsletter: leslieann.substack.com

    • Instagram: @leslieannhobayan

    • Email: leslieann@suryagian.com

    • Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLxAeQWRRsSo5E7PBJdZUeoEAYXnAtuyRy

    • Kundalini Yoga Classes: https://www.suryagian.com/anchor-amplify-kundalini
      Speak Your Truth: https://www.suryagian.com/speak-your-truth

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    37 mins
  • Ep 291 - Best of Spiritual Grit: The Fated Path vs The Destiny Path
    Oct 2 2025

    The title of this episode is basically this: will you choose capitalism? Or humanity? Which is to say: you can choose to be a full human being with all of your facets and complexities, living life exploring this existence in all ways (art making! communities of care! food growing!). OR you can give your power away and allow capitalism to dictate your fated path by constantly running on the treadmill of productivity. (Reminder: you’re not a cog in a machine.) And before you get all “well, how am I supposed to live in a capitalist society if I don’t make money?”, listen to this episode. It’s about remembering your soul path and learning self-trust again. With the lunar full moon eclipse in Pisces, there’s a whole lotta unconscious releasing (which, if you ask me, includes the conditioned thinking we got from capitalism). And with that release is a remembering and an invitation to create. Tune in!


    Today’s poems/ Books mentioned:

    • Oracle card: I Remember and I trust myself more than capitalism

    • “The Heart is Right” by Hafiz

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    Courses / Exclusive Content / Book Mentioned:

    • Subscribe to mailing list + community: suryagian.com/subscribe and get the 7-day meditation challenge, “Spark Joy in Chaos”

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    • Email: leslieann@suryagian.com

      Creative Writing Camp: https://www.suryagian.com/creative-writing-camp

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    30 mins
  • Ep 290 - How to show care and build community
    Sep 25 2025

    After being sick last week, I got to experience the effects of the failure of care. It reminded me of how important it is for us to truly make efforts showing care for each other. It emphasized how crucial community is during a time where systems of oppression are crumbling.

    In this week's episode I offer ways to think about care and how to show it. I also invite folks to think about how to build their own communities of care if they are not part of one already. Tune in to hear more about our basic human need for connection and care.

    And if you want to be part of my private mailing list, sign up here: suryagian.com/subscribe

    Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3NmlshGX4ijHPXmFIgT1Nu

    Apple: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/spiritual-grit/id1497436520

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    Today’s poems/ Books mentioned:

    • Tarot/Oracle Card: The Nine of Swords (Reversed)

    • “The Tree We Planted” by Hafiz

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    Courses / Exclusive Content / Book Mentioned:

    • Subscribe to mailing list + community: suryagian.com/subscribe and get the 7-day meditation challenge, “Spark Joy in Chaos”

    • Subscribe to “Adventures in Midlife” newsletter: leslieann.substack.com

    • Instagram: @leslieannhobayan

    • Email: leslieann@suryagian.com

    • Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLxAeQWRRsSo5E7PBJdZUeoEAYXnAtuyRy

    • Kundalini Yoga Classes: https://www.suryagian.com/anchor-amplify-kundalini
      Speak Your Truth: https://www.suryagian.com/speak-your-truth

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    32 mins