RadarOnline.com can reveal the actress confessed in her most candid and raw interview yet that she often wakes up "at 3 AM crying and gasping" over the realization of getting older, parents dying and raising children. Kidman, 57, reflected on how she's become more "open to emotions" with age while discussing her latest boundary-pushing film, Babygirl. While discussing films that pulled at her heartstrings – including Past Lives and Inside Out 2 – she said: "I cry, I do. Kidman went on to explain how hitting milestones in life over the last two decades – including turning 50; marrying husband Keith Urban in 2006; raising daughter Sunday Rose, whom she shares with the country singer, as well as her adopted children, Connor and Isabella, whom she shares with ex-husband Tom Cruise; and parents dying – made her more aware of her own mortality. And it hits you as you get older how –" Kidman took a "sharp, dramatic breath" as she continued: "it's a wake up at 3AM crying and gasping kind of thing. While she hesitated to consider her practice "method" acting, she added: "I'm willing to go to whatever place to make it real and deep. Kidman noted the importance of feeling the same emotions as her characters, saying: "You can absolutely tell when people are phoning something in. Even when the cameras stop rolling and she's home from set, Kidman confessed she continues to feel her characters emotions.