Episodes

  • Trailer
    Jun 19 2024

    This is the story of the band that almost was. You won’t hear what this band sounds like. You won’t even learn their name. But you know this band, even if you don’t.


    Even If It Kills Me is a narrative documentary podcast, chronicling the lives of Jon, Ryan, Mac and Pete as they set out across the country and try to make it as rockstars in the bygone era of the ‘00s. Each episode uses contemporary interviews and archival recordings to pull back the curtain on the nitty-gritty inner workings of tour life, all unfolding during the music industry’s own fall of Rome, as massive technological shifts upended business models that had existed for decades.


    First two episodes available everywhere June 26. Tune in weekly for the next chapter in this six-part miniseries.


    This show is brought to you by Manhead Merch https://www.manheadmerch.com/


    Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production

    Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy

    Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter

    Featuring original music by Alex Dezen

    Original theme by Matt McGinley


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    2 mins
  • A Band Called ______
    Jun 26 2024

    The band's journey begins. Fueled by ambition, they relocate to Los Angeles, seeking a record deal. Fortune smiles upon them as they secure a contract with their dream label.



    Tune in next Wednesday for the next chapter in this six-part miniseries.


    This show is brought to you by Manhead Merch https://www.manheadmerch.com/


    Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production

    Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy

    Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter

    Featuring original music by Alex Dezen

    Original theme by Matt McGinley


    evenifitkillsmepodcast.com

    fangworkshop.com

    mattmcginleymusic.com

    alexdezen.com


    Socialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_official

    Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.com

    Creative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0)

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    23 mins
  • Stuck Inside The Gap
    Jun 26 2024

    The band embarks on tour, only to be overwhelmed by feelings of inadequacy when measuring up to their fellow touring bands. Meanwhile, one of their tour mates achieves sudden and remarkable success on the road.



    This show is brought to you by Manhead Merch https://www.manheadmerch.com/


    Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production

    Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy

    Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter

    Featuring original music by Alex Dezen

    Original theme by Matt McGinley


    evenifitkillsmepodcast.com

    fangworkshop.com

    alexdezen.com

    mattmcginleymusic.com


    Socialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_official

    Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.com

    Creative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0)

    https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_US


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    21 mins
  • A Little Less Than Half
    Jul 3 2024

    The band grapples with the hidden expenses of touring and takes on gritty jobs to sustain themselves between tours. Additionally, they witness technological shifts unfolding while on the road.



    Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production

    Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy

    Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter

    Featuring original music by Alex Dezen

    Original theme by Matt McGinley


    evenifitkillsmepodcast.com

    fangworkshop.com

    mattmcginleymusic.com

    alexdezen.com


    Socialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_official Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.com

    Creative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0) https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_US



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    20 mins
  • Technically, This is On Us
    Jul 10 2024

    The band relies on the hospitality of others for places to sleep. One of the members experiences a breakdown and departs, coinciding with the loss of the band's cash box. A replacement is flown in, but challenges arise.



    Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production

    Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy

    Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter

    Featuring original music by Alex Dezen

    Original theme by Matt McGinley


    evenifitkillsmepodcast.com

    fangworkshop.com

    mattmcginleymusic.com

    alexdezen.com


    Socialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_official Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.com

    Creative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0) https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_US


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    28 mins
  • Nothing Short of Bliss
    Jul 17 2024

    The band steps up to a higher tier of touring, inadvertently upsetting the headlining band's tour manager along the way. They transition to a tour bus for a major festival, facing the juxtaposition of disappointing performances amidst luxurious living conditions.


    Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production

    Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy

    Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter

    Featuring original music by Alex Dezen

    Original theme by Matt McGinley


    IN MEMORY OF DUSTIN BOW


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    Lobby Time by Kevin MacLeod | https://incompetech.com/

    Music promoted by https://www.chosic.com/free-music/all/

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    Hall of the Mountain King by Kevin MacLe`od • Edvard Grieg | http://incompetech.com

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    Creative Commons / Attribution 4.0 International (CC BY 4.0)

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    Socialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_official

    Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.com

    Creative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0)

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    36 mins
  • A Crowd of No One
    Jul 24 2024

    The band grapples with crafting a successor to their debut album for the record label. Opting to part ways, they embark on a final headline tour, which falls short of expectations. One of the guys exits days before the tour's conclusion, leaving the remaining members to complete the journey without him.


    Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production

    Written and Narrated by Aaron Joy

    Produced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter

    Featuring original music by Alex Dezen

    Original theme by Matt McGinley


    evenifitkillsmepodcast.com

    fangworkshop.com

    mattmcginleymusic.com

    alexdezen.com

    Socialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_official Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.com

    Creative Commons / :) Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0) https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_US


    Hosted by Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.

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    40 mins