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I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

By: Baek Sehee
Narrated by: Jully Lee
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Bloomsbury presents I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki by Baek Sehee, read by Jully Lee.

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THE PHENOMENAL KOREAN BESTSELLER
TRANSLATED BY INTERNATIONAL BOOKER SHORTLISTEE ANTON HUR

'Will strike a chord with anyone who feels that their public life is at odds with how they really feel inside.' – Red

PSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you?

ME: I don’t know, I’m – what’s the word – depressed? Do I have to go into detail?

Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her – what to call it? – depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgemental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends; adept at performing the calmness, even ease, her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal.

But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favourite street food, the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like?

Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a 12-week period, Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops, knee-jerk reactions and harmful behaviours that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness.

©2018 Baek Sehee (P)2022 Bloomsbury Publishing Plc
Biographies & Memoirs Mood Disorders Personal Development Psychology Mental Health

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The positives were that the protagonist is clearly seeking knowledge of herself and wants to improve herself. I appreciate that. It's a reason I got this book. Her honesty is something to think about. We all ought to be combating these things.
But I think as an audiobook it probably takes from the story/physical copy because of hearing "me:" and "psychiatrist:" each time one of them speaks. And I'm not sure if the narrator was mediocre or the content wasn't interesting. With that said, there were parts of the book I related to, have thought and felt, have been through, so maybe I'm boring too.

Also what a terrible psychiatrist. I guess that's a tautology though, isn't it.
It was a cringefest to hear about the pills. I've forgotten the protagonists name and I don't know how much information was omitted from the book but I like to think the psychiatrist gave more HELP than she did pills.

I actually found myself wanting to know more about the protagonist's life. I'd have enjoyed a little story on her work and her social life as she tangos with her issues. There were some parallels between her and I which I'd (selfishly) like to read about.

The 3rd star is for the self-discovery and the strength it would take to publish this.

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I was really excited for this but ultimately found it boring and unhelpful. I found it hard to stay hooked and often found myself zoning out and losing focus

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Deeply personal and relatable

I found this personal story very interesting and I believe the author has shared their experience of managing mental health authentically. I think people who enjoy memoirs and books about childhood, families and single adulthood would enjoy the book. I’ve read other reviews of the book and there’s a lot of criticism of the quality of professional help by the psychiatrist, if that’s true it is unfortunate. However this didn’t detract from the story for me, I found it all fascinating regardless.

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not for me but it was ok.

not my style of narration but it was ok. a little repetitive at parts

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Great and thought provoking.

I have left this book with a number of questions for my own health care professionals.

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I didn’t enjoy this style of writing. I found it difficult to keep on track with the author and psychologist turn for speaking.

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